Time to complain:


Somedays I am perfectly fine, and other days I am pissed the whole day. I am so tired of all this. Tired of cancer…tired of laying in bed…tired of pain….tired of damn near everything. I keep feeling I take two steps forward and one step back:(


More recently, I’m even upset about my hair. This whole time….months and months of no hair, and just now I feel vulnerable about it. I find myself starring at people with hair. Even getting a bit pissy when a shampoo commercial comes on;) I don’t have a single hair on my face and it is REALLY annoying! I am wearing the biggest glasses I have, and it still doesn’t seem to cover up my face nearly enough.


So, my self esteem is down, and I’m a total disaster. What’s new. Somedays I want to cry all day, and this just seems to be one of them. I hate cancer, I hate what it has done to my body, done to my life, done to my self esteem… and damn near everything else possible. Overall I guess I am just tired….tired of all of it.


That’s it, I have nothing positive to say today.


This is the only photo that I have to show how I’m feeling




Time to complain:

Somedays I am perfectly fine, and other days I am pissed the whole day. I am so tired of all this. Tired of cancer…tired of laying in bed…tired of pain….tired of damn near everything. I keep feeling I take two steps forward and one step back:(

More recently, I’m even upset about my hair. This whole time….months and months of no hair, and just now I feel vulnerable about it. I find myself starring at people with hair. Even getting a bit pissy when a shampoo commercial comes on;) I don’t have a single hair on my face and it is REALLY annoying! I am wearing the biggest glasses I have, and it still doesn’t seem to cover up my face nearly enough.

So, my self esteem is down, and I’m a total disaster. What’s new. Somedays I want to cry all day, and this just seems to be one of them. I hate cancer, I hate what it has done to my body, done to my life, done to my self esteem… and damn near everything else possible. Overall I guess I am just tired….tired of all of it.

That’s it, I have nothing positive to say today.

This is the only photo that I have to show how I’m feeling